in the morning, tun on over
fake eyelashes sticking to the pillow
the blankets are deep enough
but my insides...below
in the space between cartlidge and bone
when you are alone
the days go , so, so slow

they say you don't have to believe in love
without it you can survive
but they are mistaken, see...
because
i have...nobody
and anybody or everybody who could easily see
can see the state of me

back and forth the struggle is
consuming it all
when moonlight lasts longer then sunlight
and you see the shadows flying in through your door
.,..is this the reality of having no one?
when what you make believe is what you see
and despite what they say, they won't go away

this is the harshness of nights spent alone
it's not true what they say
you can't survive, i know, you see
because look on the insides of me.

in sunny days and sparkling nights,
inside my veins, insomniac until the
morning light
well you don't know what to do with me,
because i like beautiful melodies
that tell horrible stories
and i like finishing off bottles of wine
until i can finally rest my head at
night

you, dont know what you are worth to me
i think you are the one who forces the
blood through my arteries
i promise i'll get better,
when i'm finally alive
you dont have to wait by my side.

im lost in a sea, the bottom is too far out of reach
and the top..well i'll never make it up there,
i cant not breathe
anymore
the bottle is where i place my journies
and my extended sympathies

i wish you could see
what my nerves are doing to me
ithink its them who make me drink til
the last drop
until i can do nothing more in my life
then promise myself one day i will
stop

and i can feel it eating away my visceral
parts as they struggle to complete me
im letting my organs down by this abuse
but i cant sleep at night without the use

its all these nerves
nerves
what they are doing to me
how my nerves are killing me
i will write a book but i wouldnt survive
anxiety over anxiety i'd just drown in the wine
but the weight of the world stops being so heavy
when i have a couple of chasers
inside me

my nerves
they are killing me
my nerves will be the god damn death of me