why can;t people just dress how they want to? and live the life they have to! it's so much funner being yourself :)

well i wouldnt be caught dead in this place!
i didnt mean to bleed on the dancefloor
i just wanted the attention.
I said one more glass. I shoved it in my heels
I like how cutting my inside feels
And even when I line the gun against my mind
I pull the trigger wrong
How come my arteries only bleed for so long?
Can you erase the clotting..stop the
bleeding stopping.................

At 10 in the afternoon
The pills can only get you so far!
Well if they're gonna get me,I wish they'd
do it in the safety of my own backyard.

what i really meant to say is im sorry for the way i am!

dying may be the only way out of this mess. ive had enough. i dont like feelings when they arent good ones..

a few thoughts

I ran over some people. Got blood on my
heels. Yeah well it's midnight inside
I gotta stop spilling worthless tears,
They're not gonna reach out and cuddle me are they?

And when I pile on my glitter mascara
Petal coloured lips, and rose cheeks
It's still disdain staring back at me
So with a hammer I smashed the glass
A million pieces of empty, staring at me
hoping this pain won't last.

I'm scraping the skin of my wrists
On the concrete outside my door
The passerby's believe it's lipsick
But you know it's something more
I'm so sick sick sick of hearing
I'll try harder
And things will be better

I can't give you any more time
We all know pretending is just a lie.


no seriously! i am. im so over it you always promise that! you can't keep 1 single promise! The only time you've ever said you loved me was when you were drunk, it's not that fucking hard to say it anyway! i say it all the time to people! it doesnt cost you a single thing! and i stabbed you in the back did i? yep, i did, i went out of my way trying to get help for you and did you even bother to take any of it up? i tried to give you direction and still you did the same thing.

I hate the Rain

If I [sometimes] lye alone, turn off my houselights,
Raise my glass, and hold a butcher knife
Instead of a hand.
Maybe you'll believe in me.

'cause I don't like moving when it's raining.
So I wish you would stay
I tell you time and time again
How much I hate the rain.

When I was sad. And nobody care to know it.
In my heart you gave me black roses
I tied them up in my hair.
I wanted to believe you. That you were
there.

So, for my birthday. Please give me the stars
So I can finally shine like you.
I don't want to rest in peace!
I want to rest in pieces.
I just want to hold you forever. and ever.
and evereverevereverevereverever.

I don't want to die! I swear.
I just need a pretty smile in my reflection
Tell me,
it will be over soon.
Promise me?
'cause I really can't promise you.

It's cancer. The beloved serum that erodes each artery
Decorates the capillaries with sparkles
When the feeling is like hummingbirds dancing in my stomach
They may be bullets but
They do elate.
And so the rational part of me screams
'somebody do something!!'
but the other side; it's out of it's mind.
Who would have believed a needle with some crystals
Could fill each fibre of me with warmth
Wrap a set of soft hands around my heart
Catch me when I fall..

....but by first morning
my soul was gone.

I don't wanna be more then who I am,
I'm quite content with vomitting candy every morning
Not knowing when the sun rises and falls
Forgetting how to read the time.

Sleep in clothes days and weeks maybe
months old.
Lying amongst these empty bottles.
Sometimes the glass cuts my skin
And the poison cuts my liver lining
But it's worth it for the gain
...wraps it's arms around me and
takes away all the world's pain.

Happiness comes when you accept your fate
And i've come to love mine.

I like rainy days, makes me not miss being out in
the sunlight. Nobody in this world has thoughts like me,
If I could let them in , I would,
I'd ask them to set me free,
When your insides burn to nothing, thats when you stop
to feel, and only hurt
Thats when your it becomes the needles turn
To hold and,
I'll let it see my tears.