of course its highly confusing
to have thoughts cross over one another
then run in and drown out each other
have them yell at you from the back
of your mind
then break your concentration

i don't wanna be chemically restrained
any more, you understand?
i miss reading Plath and not spilling
every coffee in my shaking hands

And it's all evaporating
the contents of my personality
My soul. My constraints. Everything in
Me.